Over a year ago I posted I was moving back to LA. I did, got a job working at the biggest post house in the world and now I have an amazing boyfriend, 2 kittens and my own apartment that I furnished from NOTHING. That's pretty much been my life in the past year.
Now onto my rant. (Be warned it will be sloppy, offensive, tangential and you will most likely hate me afterwards, or I may change your life. Oh my grammar sucks, deal with it, it doesn't mean I'm an idiot)
For my birthday my boyfriend and I went to Yachats, OR and Leavansworth, WA to my boyfriends cabin. It was absolutely beautiful and it was the most romantic thing any one has ever done for me. While I was there I had a sudden realization that the city life is not for me. I HATE it. And since then I have picked apart why I hate it and also realized I'm really a bitter racist person and quite frankly I don't care. I'll be nice to you I won't do hate crimes against you but I have the right to not like you, there is nothing illegal about being racist, just acting like a lunatic upon it.
In OR I saw MAYBE 4 Mexican people and they made the BEST mexican food ever and were actually respectable and very nice and oh, they were here LEGALLY!
Upon getting back to LA I realized that I'm sure the majority of the Mexicans here are illegal and sucking off us Americans for all they are worth. I wish I had "welfare living" as a major in college. And on that topic, I qualify for about -4 (yes, that's a negative sign) scholarships because I am not an Asian American who immigrated here with a hair lip lazy eye and a piece of cloth over my ass. Or I'm not a girl who has illegally living in America parents. My parents worked every fucking day of their lives for what they have and since there have been so many immigrants coming in and taking their jobs, they are left with nearly nothing. The American dream is for foreigners. ANYWAY, since I have been back in LA I just absolutely hate it. I live in the fucking ghetto with roaches because I have settled and accepted that this is how I have to live because I don't make enough money to afford an apartment in a good neighborhood (I make 50K+ a year though, FYI *note slight snarky sarcasm*). The apartment next to mine was INFESTED with roaches and it took me asking one of the seven (7, VII, 6+1, 8-1) people living there IN SPANISH if they had roaches. As well as the apartment next to them. I have accepted that this is the way of I life I need to live to work out here and live my "dream" (which I'll be explaining about later). My boyfriend has made me realize that I am worth so much more than this shitty apartment, shitty car and shitty neighborhood. I grew up better than this and I grew in a lower middle class (wtf is a middle class anymore?!?!!) family.
**BE WARNED THIS IS WHERE I GET VERY VERY OFFENSIVE AND CONSERVATIVE**
I HATE that there are homeless people on the street. I HATE HATE HATE IT! Why do I hate it? Because there are shelters to go to if need be, there are small jobs that they can do and work and save money. Hell, I freaking did it and look at me now?! I Might not have what I want but I am still working harder every day for that. I don't like that my paychecks get cut into 3rds so I can pay for welfare for the lady down the street with a Gucci bag, iPhone 5, Escalade and food stamps. This country sucks major donkey dick and we as Americans need to get back to our American values. Valuing OUR lives over a countries people who BLOW US UP. For fun. Every homeless person I see I feel sorry for because they have to have had a family and what happened to that family? Why did that family not try to help them? Drugs? HELP THEM THROUGH REHAB. That is what a FAMILY is for. We need to stop being such a selfish country towards our own flesh and blood. Yes be selfish towards others who come to this country expecting a payout from us but not to your own mother father son daughter and anyone you call your true family. I'm not talking about your 5th cousin twice removed living in an African tribe. Let them figure life out and how to survive because yes according to paper they're related but they're not family.
Why can't I get proper treatment for my PCOS and fibroid on my uterus and ovaries? Oh because planned parenthood says I make too much money and charges me up the ass to even walk in and get new birth control which hasn't worked and after SEVERAL times asking to change it, they won't. Just because I make 3200 a month does NOT mean that I bring home 3200. I bring about 2200 home, 1050 goes towards rent, then about 600 in other bills then come groceries gas, and then emergency money if any is left. I barely have a savings.
Just because I think you should get a job and not take my hard earned money out of my paycheck does not mean I think the world is 5000 years old and care who you sleep with.
I am not a die hard republican at all. I am a conservative liberal I guess. An oxymoron.
It is not fair that I work so you can live, you are not my child I don't care about you and you shouldn't be taking my fucking money.
Ok now I'm just going off really bad and I'm not going to make sense so I'll just top there.
Long story short, I really just want this country to kick out all the non-americans so we can actually be a country again. And I guess you can say I'm racist but it's only towards people who take advantage of my country and refuse to assimilate into american culture when they are illegal. I don't call that racism I call that being an American who takes pride in her country.
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